Life, It will kill you

Been a while since I wrote this this thing, my ADHD again I reckon, why I could never make a living as a writer can't focus on anything. Today two very well known people passed on. One was expected to do so she had been ill for a few years, one was not expected. He was only 50, not known to be ill, and now he's gone. I was never a big fan his, he had some good songs and I realize he had a big impact on pop culture. The shame of it is that some will remember thse taboid crap about hiim instead of his work and his humanitian contribrirtion.

His death his a reminder to us that our time on this planet is finite. It can end at anytime, for anytime reason. I've been thinking about that alot lately. Things have not been the best for me recently, to be quite frank they have sucked. I started having seizure again in March, it started off I was having them once in awhile, not ideal but manageable. It has progressed to the point I'm having seizures evryday now. Life is just to short to by dealing with these things. I need to get my seizures under control once and for all. July 24th i'm scheduled to go inpatient in OSU's esplipy clinc. I need to get these under control then get back to school, finish my masters and get my teaching lincense. I need to be working with kids with special needs that's what makes me happy and I feel I can make a difference with kids. I feel all people should try to use there life to make a difference for the good in some area. My area I've choosen is specails needs children. I need to stop thinking about and start doing it. The thing with Alex was a real wake up call for me I really wanted to help him but couldn't because I didn't have my lincense. Also because three people I thought were my friends who would listen to me and supportme didn't. But it happen and I can't change it. Now I know what I have to do. Just pray I have success in the clinc.